Friday, December 31, 2004

Where would you hide a moose?

I found this picture hanging around in my digital camera and thought I'd share it. I have posted it along with others over at my Buzznet page.

This seemed like a good excuse to remind everyone about my photos on Buzznet.

I will probably put some sort of a photo gallery on this site at some point, but I will also keep using Buzznet for all the little things. Besides, I can post to it easily from anywhere which I might not be able to do in a gallery here.

We'll see how things progress.

Thursday, December 30, 2004

One angry man

In my earlier post I mentioned how my emotions had been heightened last night. Well, today wasn't much better. Only there was a significant difference...

Today I felt angry.

Not about anything in particular, just angry. Varying from a low simmer to a raging boil. From wanting to be left alone to wanting to put my fist through a wall. I didn't damage anything and just stuck with spending the day alone.

A don't know what I will be doing tomorrow night for New Year's Eve. I just hope that I can get whatever this is under better control before I do it.

My sister (by mutual consent) is having a housewarming which I am welcome to attend, only I am a couple thousand miles too far away to make it. I wish I could though.

I hope you all have something good planned and will not just be spending the night drinking alone.

Rough Night

Last night was a rough night for a couple of different reasons. My sinuses were acting up making it hard for me to breathe properly... My bloodsugar level was about 80 points higher than it should have been... And, to top it off, at 4am I was awake with tears in my eyes.

When my bloodsugar is that far off it can throw my system off as well. That includes physically, mentally, and emotionally. Especially emotionally. So that was definitely part of what happened about 4am, but certainly not all of it. Something had to be the trigger. When your (my) emotions get heightened like that it only heightens what is already there, it generally doesn't cause new feelings, although it can bring out feelings that you were trying to hide from yourself.

I'm not saying that I was trying to hide anything from myself, but then again, if I was would I have even known?

Granted, I do know there are a couple of things which have been weighing on my mind. I didn't think they were weighing that much...

I don't know if they were the cause or if there was something else.

Once I figure out how much of it I can post here I'll do it. I'd post some of it now, but there are other people involved and I don't want to cause problems for them.

Wednesday, December 15, 2004

Name Calling

I stopped to do some Christmas shopping on my way home from work tonight and couldn't believe what happened.

I asked one of the store assistants a couple of questions and then was able to figure out the rest based on her answers. And she said "You are a smart young man."

Can you believe it? It has been several a couple of years since any one referred to me as a "young man."

Well, at least it was said without any sarcasm. And it gave me feel good, if only for a moment, amid all the hassles that are Holiday Shopping™.

If this had happened over the weekend or earlier I might have said that it was the bright spot of my day. However, there has been a change this week which has caused a turn for the better. I don't want to say too much right now, so I'll just leave you all guessing what it could be. I'll just see where it goes.

And I'll hope things keep looking as good as they have for the last two days.

Walk in Beauty.

Friday, December 10, 2004

Cane Or Able?

My legs have been bothering me for a while now. Mainly it has been my knees acting up. Several times to the point where I needed to pull out my cane for the day. I guess all the drastic changes in the weather lately have been aggravating them.

Today was the second day in a row that we had good weather, and the first day in a quite a while that my knees actually felt good. It made for a nice change.

So tonight I went out for a walk and my knees held up pretty good, a little shaky but not too bad. However, my hip and back started to feel a little strained.

Partly it goes back to the hermitting I was doing. I was feeling depressed and wanted to keep to myself. The best way to do that was to just stay in.

Of course there is also the fact that when I was walking I was using a cane and therefore using slightly different muscles and using them in a different way. I just need to keep walking to make sure I get everything back the way it should be.

I'll let you know how it goes.

Wednesday, December 08, 2004

The 'lack of stories' story.

I know it has been a while since I posted. I am going to try to post more regularly, but don't hold me to that just yet. It is going to be a New Year's Resolution so I have a couple of weeks yet.

Anyway, there has been a lot going on at work lately, but not much else. A whole lot of nothing. It doesn't help that I was "hermitting" again. I did go see "Saw". I had heard good things about it, and it was an excuse to get out of the house.

All I will say about the movie for now is that I liked it. It is a very well done movie and doesn't try to give itself a typical "Hollywood" ending. When the movie ends there have been actual consequences for all the characters.

Anyway, this was just intended as a quick post to let people know that I am still alive, and still here. I still owe you a couple of stories. Ones I mentioned in comments on Scary Duck's blog. [Editor: A very good, and highly recommended blog.] and maybe a couple of other places. If you know of any I said I would post, or just any you would like to read, leave me comments below. I will post the stories eventually.

So I am still breathing, when my sinuses are clear enough. I am going to bed now, but I will be back soon.